Yesterday another spur of the moment thing I decided to take the kids on an overnight vacation again.. this time to Falmouth. I felt they deserved it but I needed a get away too.

It was a nice place with a heated kiddie pool and adult pool... a beach (could not go swimming in it I guess because of the eels)...sand....paddle boats and row boats.

We were nonstop since we got there and I just knew people there were saying''''yep she's nuts 4 kids here alone??????''''' as they were mostly couples with one or two kids tops.

We grilled our dinner...hamburgs and hotdogs. The best time of the day was when it was late around  9 Geneva (1) was fussy being in a different surrounding so I took her and Isaiah (4) down to the beach as Darian (13) and Cullen (9) played badmitton. I sat there bouncing here on my knee as she fell asleep. Isaiah played in the sand as I soaked up the nature... that beach smell...sand between my feets... the sound of the water I Loved it

I love this song found it on You Tube what a pretty voice and an awesome message

Last week was hell pure hell with all the kids home for the WHOLE day due to summer vacation from school.

This week (all though it is just Monday) seems so much more manageable perhaps it is because I am getting used to it but more so because my numbers are down... YAY!

Darian (13) has summer school in the mornings all week except for Fridays. He even gets a bus so I don't have to wake up in the morning to take him.

 

I am bad at decision making specialy when I am under stress like now. I got a call this morning from a job I applied for  all most a month ago. I had questions about it when I first applied like it is for an Attorney yet I never met or talked to him.... it is located next to a chiropractor's office... I was interviewed by the office manger at the chiropractor's office and not the Attorney himself... I never set eyes on the actual office I would be working for.

The job description is one I would LOVE to do. Basicly doing everything for the Attorney as he would be based in Boston most of the time... I would be using my college degree working as a paralegal... I could really stick it to the insurance companies as I could settle the client's injurie cases.

My gut feeling tells me there may be something shady going on with the office as it does not seem the norm to me to not ever speak to the Attorney before you get hired however I desperatley want to get off of welfare and be able to do for my kids as I used to do.

Money is so tight that it is hard to give them the little extras and take them places as I used to do. Then I wonder if I should give it some time given my mental health right now and focus on me getting better.

I have a habit of jumping into the fire when I am all ready feeling the heat because my back is against the wall.

So blogstream family I am looking to you for some help... some advice all is welcome. I appreciate it

Well it's finally here the time I dread all the kids here at home for a few months as school is out. Now I really have to think fast on my toes to try to stop the boredom before it starts as that is where we get into the problems here.

We went to the pond for a few hours yesterday. Cullen (9) and Darian (13) fished while Isaiah (4) Geneva (1) and I swam in the water and dug in the sand.

It was nice to be out in the sun for a while... however today we are in for thunder showers so it will be an inside day (Oh help me!)