There are days where I am strong... days when I am weak and days when I fall some where in between.
Latley I have been having a hard time just dealing. I turn to my kids for comfort and then when they do their normal kid stuff fighting and arguing I feel like throwing my arms up and giving up.
Some times it feels like I am falling deeper and deeper under water unable to breathe. So I am reaching for anything that may pull me above water if even for a brief moment.
I have begun to take my Mom's dog on morning walks when the older kids are at school and I DEMAND the younger kids Dad to watch them.
See he is usualy an all about me type of person but I had to put my foot down I really need this time alone if just for a short while to get myself back together.
Latley it seems like the littlest things set me in a downward spiral and I feel as if I can not breathe yet this is life it is MY life and my kids life I have to catch myself before I go down deeper. I want to be that energetic happy Mom they know but again I am only human