Having 4 kids is a whole lot of fun...and a whole lot of spreading yourself around.
I have everyone's best interest in mind..but damn my mind gets overwhelmed sometimes with what everyone wants and needs.
Darian (13) had asked to go to the mall today so I had to stop by the ATM get him some cash..then drop him off at the bus station. I love his independence it is really nice to see him be able to handle it all. I keep a close eye on him to make sure he is staying on the straight and narrow. Really puts things in prospective when you see your 'baby' walking away from the car waiting for the bus. Then to hear him say how all his friends are going to be at the mall as Friday nights are the time to be there. He has more of a social life then I do
Then Isaiah (4) has been bugging me all week for Bunny Yogurt (Trix yogurts). He has been asking when we are going food shopping I keep telling him Friday so when today came he was so happy yelling 'we're going food shopping'. I had to laugh because if we were out in public someone would swear I don't feed him
I am proud of that little bugger because for a 4 year old he sure likes good food. His requests...apples...watermellon...and yogurt then a snickers bar too but hey that's pretty good.
Cullen (9) has been in a nasty mood since he got home. I can tell something is on his mind. He is the type that holds it in..at times I don't think he even knows how he takes what's on his mind on other people. I have to remind him after a few questions he began to cry..telling me he has a headache and that it bothers him about his father.
I called his Dad yesterday and left a message as I have not heard from him. Last time I talked to him he said he 'had to think about being a father or not' His distance not calling us back seems to be the answer he is not interested in being a father but there is no easy way to tell a kid that.
I told him he has a right to be angry and hurt but that 'Recovery is the best revenge' him being the best person he can possibly be to remain happy and strong so when years to come his Dad looks at him he will see how good he has done in his life.
I also pointed out that he is lucky to have a Mom who loves him to death and siblings that do the same. I pointed out how some people do not have either parent in their life. He seems to be doing better now.
I have been working with Geneva (11 months) as she is standing on her own here and there so I am hoping she will start walking soon.
What does Angie get for a hard days work being a Mom to 4 kids....a shower
that is my reward and something I look forward to every day call me nuts I know I am. Hope you all have a great weekend

It's so nice to see our kids grow up into little individuals. Isaiah (4) has made his first childhood friend Anthony who is 5 from downstairs.
They have played together here and there outside but the past 2 days they have become closer. Isaiah went down to his house last night then tonight I returned the favor.
Isaiah was so excited all day waiting for his friend to get home from school to invite him in.
Darian (13) is like the little boys God. It's so funny he looks at him and says 'Are you a teenager now?'..in pure awe.
Cullen (9) and Darian (13) are great helps. The younger ones look up to them.
I was surprised when Isaiah and his friend asked Darian if they could go in his room. In my mind I did not think he would want to be bothered by the little ones..but he said yes.
I can tell Darian thinks it is cool that the little friend looks up to him. Gives him a chance to give a male role model to someone something his father did not give him.
So I am just sitting her with a big smile loving every minute of it. I am so proud of my older boys for being caring..helpful young men. Then I am proud of Isaiah at making a new friend. I am happy for him because he is so excited to play with someone other then his brothers.
Geneva (11 months) is just crawling around watching everything laughing and kissing into the air. She has learned how to make kissing noises as we're always kissing at her

My little girl loves the kittie. She will wake from a sound sleep with a big smile and laugh when she sees the kittie. Thought I would share these with you guys




and of course her other love...Isaiah

Good news is I do not have a broken bone..just badly bruised. So now I have to wear this oh so fancy splint
Darian (13) did not come with me...I was looking forward to it..guess he's becoming a teen now and the thought of sitting in an ER with his Mom is not what it used to be. That's OK because he told me he hoped I feel better.
I kidnapped Cullen (9) straight from school did not give him a choice. He was happy with it though until minutes turned into hours then I told him there would be a 'reward'..we went to Burger King after.
So I do not know how much I will be blogging as it takes forever typing with one hand. The dr said it should be better in a week.
I'll still be reading my favorite blogs..just won't be able to comment as much...so I'll be lurking in the darkness so to speak.
I told my Mom about my hand she's like guess you'll never learn and laughs. I was infamous as I was growing up punching holes in walls and what not..I had a very bad temper which has cooled off over the years. Temper does not go well with kids. Some things never change all though I have not assaulted a peice of furniture or the wall since I was a teen. Points for me

I think I am having PMS again I am not sure as I have not been charting these things since I had my tubes tied...one less thing to worry about.
So I am a little bit moody...little bit sad..little bit teary eyed...for what I am not sure so yes it must be PMS. My hand it killing me from the time when I argued with my neighbor my dumb ass punched my dresser and now I am feeling the pain. I think I am going to go to the ER today once BF can relieve me of my duties because my Doctor can not see me until tomorrow but I can't stand the pain anymore.
So as I was sitting here in the pits. I turned around to Isaiah (4) laughing his bum off as he had taken 'his friend' out..the ferret. They are so a match made in heaven. It's amazing that the little creature can have as much if not more energy then Isaiah.
Then Isaiah had to tell me how he put his 'friend' back in her cage because she was a 'bad boy'...yes I typed it right he calls her a him all the time . Isaiah tells me that his 'friend' was not listening it kept jumping on Geneva's back while she was crawling (which Geneva doesn't seem to mind) so Isaiah 'sent him to his room'. I looked at him and said see how hard it is being a parent when someone doesn't listen. He looked at me with a blank look then went to get his friend out again.
Well their antics put a smile on my face if only for a moment. Once I pick up Cullen I will be heading to the ER to wait FOREVER I am sure but it is better then waiting until tomorrow. I just can't.
I bet anything that Darian (13) will offer to come he really likes to spend one on one time with me and he is so protective of me when it comes to me being hurt mentaly or physicaly. We'll see if the teenage hormones have not taken that from me too