This morning was hectic. I took the younger ones with me while I went to get an inspection sticker for the car. I am thinking 1/2 hour tops.. The car is only 2 years old so there should not be anything that would prevent it from failing.
I took the car to the dealership as they have a waiting area for the kids which used to have toys and a TV. It still has a TV thank goodness but no toys.
We waited 2 hours just to be told that my car was rejected for a tiny little scratch on the glass. It's on the passenger side bottom not in my view at all. In fact it's been there since last year..the same dealership passed it what's different this time? I tried to explain that to them but they were not hearing me.
I buckled the kids into the car then the tears started to run. All the emotions from this week just built up now I am looking like psycho woman balling in the car
Once I was a little calm I looked and the car had a 2008 sticker on it....they were doing me a favor I guess by giving it to me yet trying to sneak the fact that it has to be fixed in there.
I took the younger ones to the park after which was wonderful. As I was out in the fresh air I realized some times I am my own enemy. I freak out to easy without taking a deep breath and seeing what is actualy going on. I guess that's kind of normal.
All these little dramas going on in my life has showed me I so...o need to take more time to smell my own roses..those roses being my kids which bring me so much joy.
On that note i put together a little slide show of Geneva (10 1/2 months) as I have so many new photos of her. She is growing like a weed these days..or shall I stay on a positive note and say a rose bush
Besides the boys are such harder targets the older ones hardly let me take photos and Isaiah is so hyper the dang camera can't even catch him.

Create Your Own

I am convinced that this world is going to hell now
I had a beautiful morning taking the little ones to the natural resource center with my Mom and her new dog. It's a park with some farm animals you can feed and paths to walk on.
It was nice to be out in the fresh air with family. Seemed like I did not have a care in the world compared to last night's mood meter which was like through the roof on the PSYCHO mode
On my way home after picking up Cullen from school I called Darian's (13) cell to make sure he got in ok or to see where he was at. There was no answer so I figured he was staying after for makeup work.
When I come home freaky neighbor is yelling 'SECOND FLOOR HELLO SECOND FLOOR'. I thought she was just trying to cause drama again as she always called me by name before so I ignored her.
Then she is knocking at the door...I ignored her again because I know my limit and I do not need it right now. Then I hear her saying something about the police again I think she is just being crazy so I ignored her.
Then the words no mother wants to hear 'DARIAN IS AT THE HOSPITAL THE POLICE WERE HERE'. I ran to the door swinging it open forgeting my feelings towards her for the moment as I needed to know what she was talking about. She told me the police were here earlier because Darian was hit by a car and taken by ambulance to the hospital.
I take off in a frenzy to the hospital thinking he is in ICU or something. Then I saw him sitting in a wheel chair..all parts...no blood,,,just a bandage and some ice. Thank God
Turns out he was crossing the street with his friends after the bus dropped him off and a car hit him. He fell on to the hood then got up. The freakin lady shoots him the bird then swears at him..then takes off
What is wrong with the world today? Doesn't any one have morals anymore? He's a kid someone's kid that loves him don't they have heart enough to make sure he is ok?
He got Xrays and has a possible fracture they put him on crutches and a mobilizer until he goes to see an ortho soon.
First Cullen (9) and his incident with the knife...now Darian witha hit and run. People I am so ready to put each of my kids in their individual bubbles to keep them safe. but I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!

There is that saying be careful what you wish for..it just might happen..well that happened tome today
Cullen has been trying to have a relationship with his Dad for years now. He usualy calls him with no return no return for years now.
I was able to solve the problem when he lived in the state by taking a road trip out to where he is at for a surprise visit. What could he do then...shut the door..even he could not do that with his son.
On our last visit that is when I learned that he was moving to New York all the boxes were lined up in his kitchen. He says he was going to tell me but I highly doubt it.
Any how now he is way out there..so I can not take the sneak attack approach.
He finally picked up the phone today which is surprising because my cell shows my name. I asked why he has not called Cullen back and he said he did not see the point. He told me that all he is..was and will be is a sperm donor not a father.
He said since he has not been in his life hands on for all these years he sees no point. I explained that I do not think that is a wise decision as Cullen knows he is out there somewhere not like he is dead.
He then told me that he is an asshole (his words not mine) that he really thinks he is not destined to have kids. Uh one problem genius..you have one no taking that back now
I told him that I do not want to do this for years as there is no point to force someone to do something if they do not want to do it as they will not do it.
He told me that Cullen knows nothing about him...like he has never been in the kids life. He was actually a pretty good father years back taking him on the weekends and stuff. I told him Cullen knows a lot more about him then he knows and still loves him and longs for him to be in his life.
I used the instance of how when he plays video games he names the character after his father and looks just like him.
I told him how Cullen wanted to go stay with him on vacation like he promised when he first moved out there. He was just silent. i asked if Cullen was not welcome...he was silent again..then he says it's not my wife it's just that I have not been his Father this long my rules are going to be different then yours how will he listen to someone he doesn't know. I explained how Cullen is so smart how he wants his father to be in his life so he is bound to want to please him.
He ended the conversation by telling me that he would have to think about it (this makes me so FREAKIN MAD YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT BEING A FATHER TO YOUR 9 YEAR OLD SON???) Give me a break.
I remained sweet as can be so he could not turn it around on me. Now I have to wait all though he has made it clear through his actions he does not want to be his father and that is sad

The mechanic's son called me a little while ago asking for my VIN to make sure he got the right part.
He just calls again and said the part is on it's way to the shop. I told him I would have to wait until after 2:30 as I have to pick up Cullen (9) he says oh that's ok just come down after that will be fine your Mom's just here now hanging out.
OMG I am so embarassed...my Mom is not very subtle at things at all. I can see her down there now grilling him...so you met my daughter what do you think of her...blah blah blah.
All there is left to do is to forget that conversation ever happened re my Mom being there and just go get the damn mirror fixed after school.
My Mom means well but damn that's embarassing like I am some ugly step sister she is trying to have married off. What's next is she going to offer the guy some type of money kick back if he marries me?

I always wait for the last minute for things..it's just my nature one of my faults. Don't know why I do it I just do.
In a few days I will have to get an inspection sticker for my car and it's not going to pass...why you should ask???? A lady opened her door into my mirror all most a year ago. I have never got it fixed...hey I don't use the mirrors any how
So I went to this mechanic my Mom knows she loves him he has been real good to her..plus if she send people his way he gives her free oil changes. My Mom keeps talking about the mechanic's son..how gorgeous he is...how nice and polite...how she wants to hook me up with him.
Now a Mom hook up and can never be good...at least I think so..I always yes her off. Meeting this guy's son was the last thing on my mind.
However I must say when I laid eyes on him..mmmmm...mmmmm...mmmmm...yummy very very yummy. Tattoos, dark and handsome (puerto rican)...rides a motorcycle...nice muscles. Yeah I didn't pay too much attention to him
I have to go back either later today or tomorrow to get it fixed as they need to get the part.
On my way home I stopped at my mom's to visit but she wa son her way out. First thing she said to me was did you see him? What did you think? Did he like you. Come on now Mom am I really that desperate that I am going to ask the man hey do you like me when I first meet him?
She is all giddy and stuff thinking we are going to hook up. She's so funny. She has only tried to hook me up with 2 people I think this guy being the second so that's not too bad.
She is still working on the other one but he moved out of state still comes to visit her from time to time asks about me I guess.
So there is hope on the horizon once I take my trash out