I picked Cullen (9) up with the whole crew of kids..Darian (13)...Isaiah (4)....Geneva (10 1/2 months) as Darian wanted some new skateboarding shoes at Bob's.
I can't tell you how happy I was to see him walking to my car safe and unharmed.
First thing he said was that he thanked me for calling the school..that he knows he did the right thing.
He expected his friend to be mad at him maybe even not wanting to be his friend anymore because this is out in the open..but turns out he knows what he did was wrong. He was just trying to show off.
Some of the kids were calling Cullen a snitch at school after this all took place. Kids will always be kids making fun of others that break the mold in some way or the other.
I told Cullen one important saying that I myself try to live by ' Stand up for what you believe in even if you stand alone'. I explained to all the kids of how important it is to come to me with anything even stuff that they think I may not want to hear..that I promise not to freak out or act without telling them my plan to correct the situation.
I also told them how different the world is now then when I was their age.
Honestly I told Cullen that he may get some back lash for some time because that's just the way school and kids are that has not changed over the years but pretty soon they'll forget all about this situation and run on to someone else to talk about.
I told Cullen to hold his head up high that I was proud of him for coming to me and standing by his guns doing the right thing even though it was a very hard thing to do.
I am very proud of my son

I just followed up with Cullen's (9) school. In fact the kid did bring a pcoket knife to school on Friday...many kids were talked to and admitted that they saw this kid with it...which is good because it takes some of the heat off of Cullen.
The principal talked to the boy who brought this about #1 how dangerous that it was that he brought it in...if he was in middle school she told him that the police would have had to be involved then #2 threats to someone about stabbing a person is not to be taken lightly.
The kid was in tears she said he seems to now realize how important this whole issue was. His Mom was called and they will be handling it on that level.
Cullen will have a session with their school adjustment counselor tomorrow whom he has seen a few times over his Dad. As the principal even said that Cullen was the one most upset by this.
I was sort of hoping when I called that it would have been unfounded so I guess in my own way I would feel better about the situation but this was not the case. It was real it did happen very scary.
I will have to do some one on one convo with Cullen tonight to make sure he is OK. The adjustment counselor is a great idea as I have been meaning to see about having him go see a counselor for the issues with his Dad as he holds a lot in and that is no good for anyone specially a child.
For now my baby is safe and sound this I am happy for.

While dropping off Cullen (9) at school this morning he made mention that 'I hope I don't get stabbed today' referring to Friday when his 'friend' Justin who is his age brought a knife to school and kidding with Cullen showed it to him saying he was going to stab him
Cullen told me he did not want to say anything to the teachers as he did not want his friend to get mad at him or be known as a snitch. I explained he HAS TO TELL a teacher with something like that. He has to because that is someone's life.
I explained to Cullen that teachers are adults their smart their not going to throw him in the mix if he specifically tells them not to put him into it they can just say they saw it.
While dropping him off..him making this statement I again urged him to tell a teacher. He is a shy boy I mean he would not even walk up to the barber Saturday to request the hair cut even though he has been to him numerous times and will talk to him while in the chair. I am working with him on this as he is growing into a young man as a young man he needs to use that voice of his I won't always be here to do it for him.
This situation is very dangerous so I decided to make a phone call myself this morning to the school. I explained to the princial what I know from Cullen she said she would talk to Cullen this morning then talk to the boy. She assured me Cullen would not be implicated.
It is a sad state of the world now a days. Years ago it was unheard of for a nine yearold to be bringing weapons to school now it is all over the news. Not even just them bringing weapons to school but actually using them Kids even younger then nine.
As a parent we send our kids to school for an education but the truth is everyday you send them out into the world wether it be school or to play you never know if they will be coming back or not.
I tell all of my kids all day long that I love them even if I am just walking by them. Now I don't always hear it back specially from my 13 year old but at least I know that they know I love them.
We have to live each day as if it was our last because you never know when your own time or someone we love's time is going to come.
I just pray every day and night that my children will be able to grow up and become adults safely. It is indeed scary raising children in today's world

Tonight I got to do what I love about being a parent...getting hands on interacting with my kids.
Geneva (10 1/2 months) was sleeping. It started out just Darian (13) and I talking then Cullen (9) came in because he could hear me talking.
We started to joke and laugh with one another then Darian started singing the diarieah song...I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THE SONG STILL EXISTS and it's not the one from the pepto commercial.
I started to pipe in with them knowing it word for word. I love it when I can have that time to be on their level for some good old fun and games.
Of course Isaiah (4) heard the commotion and he came in to. It's not everyday that I can act like their friend..or a playmate but there are times where it is fitting to do so.
I treasure those times where we can all get along and laugh. I love laughing and having a good time.
People let me tell ya...the best things in life are FREE

Cullen (9) came to me tonight telling me how he wanted to call his Dad. I said no problem and got him the phone then he tells me he doesn't want to because he is just not going to answer.
So I made the phone call for him with Cullen right beside me. I left a very nice message as I have learned through the years I have to be kiss a** nice to him or else he will use that and say oh I don't see Cullen because Angie is being a bit**.
I asked him to call Cullen, how badly Cullen is hurting by not talking to him...all he needs to do is pick up the phone and call not much if you ask me. In my message I also asked him to tell me what it is that is preventing him from being a father to Cullen as I am trying to facilitate a relationship between them both no matter what it takes.
In my heart I know he is not going to call Cullen back he doesn't even know why he is doing what he is doing. He wasn't always like this he would give Cullen attention but usually it depended on the woman he was with. I never had a problem with him when he was single but if he had a girl and they did not get along well with kids then Justin would just neglect Cullen.
His new wife is one of those women who want him to herself. Everyone has noticed the way she treated Cullen...not very nice at all as if she was jealous of him. I could not even imagine being jealous of a child specially the child of my husband. I would be going all out trying to make that child like me so some sort of family normalcy would be there.
I called Cullen's great grandmother after I called Justin as she is Justin's grandmother. She told me Justin's new excuse for not being a father to Cullen is that he does not think Cullen is his kid...that his name is not on the birth certificate and I refuse to take a DNA test.
FREAKIN LIER....I explained that this is not the case that HE was the one who requested the DNA test as a result of me pursuing child support that Cullen and I have gotten out parts done now we're just waiting for him. It's not my fault that we were not married when I gave birth to Cullen or that he never signed the birth certificate after Cullen was born. He asked how he could be on the birth certificate and I told him to go to city hall and sign it point blank which HE never did.
I should be getting used to his lies as it is always some new reason why he is not being a father to Cullen just stinks that I am always that reason