Pretty Rubble gave me some wise words this afternoon. She told me to intend to have a good time. Intend, intend, intend those were the words I told myself through the afternoon today.
I picked Cullen (9) up from school ready to go off for our date. He had other plans though. Cullen did not want to go the movies so early. I tried to explain that we could walk around the mall after but still no go. Then he tells me he doesn't want to go I had my hope set on this. Then PR's words rang in my head Angie...intend, intend, intend to have a good time.
I used this time to cool off. Went to the car wash, washed the car, cleaned inside and out. Went and got my oil changed big fun
Then I called home asked Cullen if he wanted to go he changed his mind woo hoo our plan is back on track. Came home picked him up had dinner, shopped for a while then went to the movie 'Norbit' which by the way was so funny from begining to end. I have not laughed like that in such a long time.
This time the theater was not crammed pack with teens the ratio was even teens to adults. I must have a magnet for the loud teenagers because I had two of them in front of me. Cullen pointed it out to me because they were right in front of him. I told him if they were bothering him to kick the back of their chair when they turned around tell them to shhhhhh. Cullen being the shy boy he is didn't want to do that, he just sat there getting more and more annoyed which in turn annoyed me.
Truth be told the girl weren't bothering me so much as Cullen and I had a seat between us but once he brought it to my attention it started to bug me.
Finally I tapped the one closest to me on the shoulder. When she turned around I said shhhhhhhh with the accompanied finger in front of my mouth showing her what I meant. The little fast ass turned around laughing to her friend, giggiling whispering. They continued to talk to I leaned over close to her and yelled 'what part of shhh don't you understand?' She turned around and finally the talking stopped. Damn lucky too because my adrenaline was pumping. I swear I am getting so bitchy in my old age
All in all I must say intending to have a good time instead of looking at it as I was going to have a good time helped me work everything out so we did have a good day.
Thanks PR for those wise words it will be my mantra I can see for days to come. It really works yall should try it

BF was not realizing how much lack of sleep due to teething was effecting all of me. He kept downplaying it saying it wasn't so bad. That fustrated the heck out of me because I knew how bad it was.
I like to think of myself as a calm person but days...weeks of no sleep can really mess with the best of us. BF offered his services to me, waking up with the baby when she would cry. The first day or so he was fine or at least appeared to be fine because I know him being a man it is a big no no to admit he's wrong or that a 9 month old broke him
Last night I hear those words that I longed to hear...This is hard work I now know what you mean. I ended up having to wake up because he was just all frazzled as Neva would not go back down to sleep.
Sometimes I feel as if I am a parenting coach to him...who am I kidding I am! With Isaiah I explained to him daily all the shoulds and should nots. I know I don't know it all but Isaiah was his first so I knew more then he did. I was lucky for the most part as BF did listen...had to be told a bunch of times but finally it got through the thick skull
One thing I have always told him is how babies/kids can feel your emotion if your all tensed up then they will be the same. It is impossible to calm a frantic baby if your frantic yourself all though it is hard to keep your composure you must. So that's why I had to step in last night he was frantic, tired, hmmmm all the things I have been feeling
On a positive note Neva and I laid down this afternoon for a 2 hour nap which is what she used to do before this whole schedule change. This helps me as I will take what ever sleep I can get. Hope everyone on the stream has a great weekend

Tonight I am going on a date. I am so excited. With who you may ask? My wonderful son Cullen (9). I am trying to do some extra stuff for him as my oldest Darian (13) is with my Mom in Florida for three weeks. Cullen is too young to go this year maybe next.
I received two free passes for the movies from that whole nightmare with the loud teenagers last time so I decided to use them. Learning my lesson from last time, I have waited a week or so to see the movie we want 'Norbit' with Eddie Murphy it looks funny.
We will get something to eat, walk around the mall then see our movie. It should be a great night I am looking forward to it.
The one on one time with each of my kids means the world to me. It's a time for them to be treated as the individuals they are. A time for me to catch up to what is trully going down in their lives.
What fun I just can't wait a good night yes indeed

Today was one of those days where everything that could go wrong did. I try to stay positive. Often I tell myself that it's about time things went wrong because they have been going good for a while.
Last night BF brought home the V day present I must say I was impressed. A stuffed animal with a compartment inside which I found choclate and a soul CD Very Very nice.
We took the youngest two to the doctors for their physicals. Neva is behind 2 months in her shots because I lost my insurance. I recently applied for Mass Health, received the card thought everything was all good...NOT. We get to the doctors they run the card it is not in effect. The receptionist tells me I would have to resechedule since I have no insurance. Now I am annoyed because she did not even offer me the choice to pay for the visit in cash. I hate when people do that they look at you and assume you can't pay. Also there was a sign clear as day in the office that said NO ONE WILL BE TURNED AWAY FOR IMMUNIZATIONS BECAUSE OF INABILITY TO PAY. The woman broke western with me bitchy as all can be I gave it right back to her pointing to the sign. She said fine shots only. So good thing is Neva got her shots but now I have to go through all this red tape with the insurance company.
Then on the way home I get pulled over by the cops which never happens. My adrenaline is pumping because I know why he pulled me over my registration is expired. I paid an excise bill a few weeks ago online but because I paid by check it was going to take 2 weeks for them to clear it with the registry which should have been done yesterday. He let me go with a warning and suggested I head right to the DMV to get this settled. He told me if I get stopped again I could get a $100 fine and have the car towed which would be a shame with two little ones.
The upside to that situation is I was seen right away at the DMV and everything is all settled. I have never been so happy to see a little sticker before in my life
Neva needed some new clothes as she is growing like a weed so that was fun fun fun picking out little girls outfits. I changed my pic icon to her in her new outfit.
So I got some of the bad stuff out of the way today and for everything bad that came my way there was a positive. Gotta love days like these

How is everyone's valentines day? Mine is just a normal day I guess. I hate that they hype it up because then you get a little depressed well at least I do. BF doesn't believe in the whole hype he is not a romantic any how.
I got a morning to sleep that was his present. It was better then nothing since sleep has been hard latley. He woke me up with him telling me to take the baby. Woken up from a sound sleep to an anoyed man kind of ruins the whole thing
His ears must be ringing I swear he just called me asking what I like. He runs down this whole list; shoes,makeup,hair products, jewlery no to all of them. Guess I make it hard for him when I am not direct but I would much rather be surprised then to tell him what I want, which I don't even know any how. I told him a stuffed animal always an oldie but goodie. Can't wait to see what he picks
Cullen stayed home today as they had a delay because of the weather. I decided just to give him a day out as I don't want to go out in this weather anyhow. No snow just a light coating of mush and now it is raining on top of it. So much for Isaiah and I playing in the snow