Cullen (9) and I went out today for 5 hours that is a very long time for me to be out of the house usually I just go out for an hour or two. It was so nice just the two of us shopping our butts off.
I filed my taxes and got some money back. Every year I let each kid choose something they really want when I get the money back. Darian (13) insisted on these grills...for those of you who don't know what they are their these metal plates that go on your teeth with gold or stones on them. Hey he wanted them so I got them for him their not real so they weren't that much. He was happy so I bought those for him last night. Geneva (9 months) got a little blow up ball pit with some plastic balls she loves it. Isaiah (4) got a Diego (nickelodeon cartoon character) play set.
Today Cullen and I went out for our treasures. He wanted a Smackdown Vs Raw video game (wrestling he loves it). I bought a few shirts and the biggest thing was I got fitted for some bras
This is a big thing for me because I have never been fitted for a bra before in my life. I have a habit of just looking at a bra thinking it will fit and that's it. They never fit me the right way but that's my own fault for never getting fitted but the thought of some woman measuring my boobs makes me a tad bit uncomfortable and I have no idea how to do it myself.
So off to Victoria Secret I go. I can not believe how big my boobs are I am a 40 DD Yep I put it out there They did not have too many in my size there so I went to another store and bought two very nice bras. Gosh they look like sling shots for huge rocks Guess that is where the saying 'Over the shoulder boulder holder' comes into play
Then I went to the salon in the mall as I had been there when I was pregnant with Neva have not been to get my hair cut since. I just wanted a trim but then I said what the heck lets get pampered
The stylist rocked! I got a trim, layers, thined out and highlighted. Poor Cullen was kicking himself in his butt for coming with me I just know he was but he waited patiently only getting fidgety at the end.
I love my hair. Usually I do not like to go to the salon as they always screw up my hair then I end up crying so I have been trimming it myself for years. I figure hey if it gets screwed up I have no one to blame but myself
So tonight I am feeling refreshed renewed and happy that not only did I get all my little angels something but I pampered myself a little.
I all ready have it in my head that I will get dolled up tomorrow when I go to visit Nonny with my new hair do and clothes oh yeah and the new bra. I will actually take off this darn breastfeeding bra for once

(Part III)

Isaiah will feel an inner pull towards family and being stable. And if he turns out to be less grounded (remember, that could be an obstacle in his life due to lack of earth signs in his chart....) he will have a lack of commitment. With so many things to do as a grown-up, they will have trouble settling down, even though the image, the IDEAL of a stable home life will appeal to him. Insecurity will breed a sense of self-protectiveness and an extremely competitive nature which you are seeing as we speak, right Angie!? Again, the big job is to teach him to channel this energy.
He is so competitve always wanting to be the top dog so to speak. I can only hope as with all of my kids that he will excel and find happiness as he grows.

He is full of dynamic energy and is a very attractive kid...a real charmer. He will have no problems attracting girls! They will all just be pulling out their hair with the fact he won't commit!

(ps...teach him the facts of life early! Hint, hint! And keep an eye on him or you will find yourself a grandma a lot sooner than you thought!)
Goodness goodness those birds and bees will be taught I don't want to even think about being a grandparent LOL

Teachers will tell you he's creative and quick witted! He will never be happy with a sedentary lifestyle. He's quite the storyteller and I wouldn't be surprised if he shows a flair for writing! If he can sit down long enough. I would suggest letting him tell you a story, you dictate it and he does the pictures and he will be sooo proud of the book "HE" "wrote" himself!!!
He is dying to go to school like his brothers he begs me to take him to school but he is not old enough yet. So I can see him enjoying school for an hour or two on the first day until they start telling him what to do LOL.

Your son will be stubborn and seemingly impervious to changes that he didn't "sanction" if you will. That means, changes will be ok BUT they will have to be on HIS terms! Angie, this child has the ability to accomplish many things in his life out of sheer will and determination and tenacity IF he can be taught how to stick with projects. That will be one of the biggest bugaboos about Isaiah (spelling, forgive me if I'm misspelling it.) He MUST learn to commit to things and see them through. It starts with cleaning his room, then it's homework, then it's joining a team and sticking with it for the season, even when he feels like quitting after a "bad day" etc...
Everything seems to have to be on his terms and when you try to explain to him that this is not the way it works boy oh boy does it explode!

On the surface, he may seem easy-going, congenial and very outgoing but there will also be a tendency to manipulate and control situations. Keys to his success are a strong will and the ability to get to the bottom of things

Isaiah is the master of control there is always a tug of war with the power thing going on in this house. I am constantly telling him that he is the kid and I am the parent. He can turn around any situation to try to make it seem appropriate and that's scary when a 4 yearold has that much insight into things. I can only imagine what it's going to be like as he gets older.

(Does he like puzzles, mysteries, does he like to tear apart steel balls, so to speak!? He likes tearing things apart but doesn't necessarily like putting them back together!! )

This part made me LMAO because he knows how to use tools. He loves to use the screwdriver to take apart the screws to his toys but he has no interest in putting them back together. He also freaks out when I tell him he has to pick up after playing with his toys. Dragging them all out is the fun part of course but putting them back now that's just a drag!

He wants answers when he wants them and he doggedly persists until he gets them!!! Yes, sounds familiar!?

Every day we have numerous question and answer sessions even before the why stage even came into play. He questions everything. It was a blast let me tell you when I was pregnant with Geneva as he would come along to all the doctor's appointments questioning every move she made. Isaiah is the type of kid that you can not just yes off he knows when you are not telling him the truth. Many times when I try to be slick about things not telling him the truth trying to take the easy way out he will catch me and call me on it.

Like when I go to the store he will ask to go. No Isaiah I am going to take the trash out....Mommmmy...(drawn out just like that with a your in deep shit look) you lie to me your going top the store... no Isaiah I am not ... yep you have your keys. Funny thing about it is he doesn't get mad just laughs at me like your an idiot Mom trying to pull a fast one on ME of all people!

As a grown up, he will have formidable power and control and your biggest job is to train him up right so that he "uses his power for good!" Angie, you have a wildcard here. With the right kind of parenting (which means you will HAVE TO BE THE BAD GUY MUCH OF THE TIME)this young man can grow up to be someone very, very special. He holds a lot of potential and yes, power. I think of your son and I think of Hoover Dam! You see all that power, the surge of electricity etc... but you have to have a dam there to control and CHANNEL the energy!

He will need a great same sex parent to model good character for him. Your job will be made a lot easier if there is that influence in his life.

This really got me as it sounds like Isaiah but it also sounds like what people said about his Dad when he was little. His Dad did not travel the right paths getting into trouble a lot of the times and those mistakes he pays for everyday as he did not focus on his future he lived for today and today only. I tell Ali all the time that he needs to pull it together so Isaiah will have a positive role model to mold himself after

 

First off I must thank PR from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to share her gift with myself and my family unselfishly. Too often in this world we become self absorbed we forget that we are not the only ones on this planet. PR did a reading on my son Isaiah the 4 yearold. I was floored at all of the information she gave..needless to say I am a believer. With anything in this world there are fakes and genuine people. PR is a very gifted, loving person. I will share with you the reading and disect it piece by piece trust me this will make you a believer!

I'm not completely done Angie...but here's what I have so far on your son! And all I can say is WOW WOW WOW....you have your hands full...if this child was your first, you might have said NO MAS! He's enough! But this child will also keep you on your toes and keep things ever eventful! God gives us the children He does for a reason!

I say that phrase 'If he was my first I would not have anymore kids' all the time. I love Isaiah believe me I do but he is a very tough kid to deal with. He drains the energy from me daily but hey I have always loved a challenge!

Sun....Sag...Happy-Go-Lucky, he'll love to travel...he will like his freedom...he has and will always have a high level of energy!!! He will have a passion for sports. He will have the knack of being able to mingle with all kinds of different people. He's talkative and honest...sometimes his candor will get him in trouble but hey, if you want to know if those jeans you're wearing make you look fat...ask your 4 year old! He's gonna' tell it like it is! He has a fierce love of independence but he'll have a hard time committing.

His energy level is through the roof! He can bounce off the walls from morning to night and still be going. It's as if his battery recharges on it's own. He is a very friendly kid more so then any of the others. Not a day goes by that we are not out somewhere that he won't just strike up a conversation with anyone adult or child. It's pretty funny to see stranger's reactions as he is like hey how are you and I can tell their searching their memory banks like do I know this kid?

As for telling it like it is she is straight on with that one. He cracks me up daily with some of the things that come out of his mouth. A lot of the time he stumps me with the way he responds to my requests.

Independence is a big thing with him from day one. Minutes after birth he was holding his head up while lying on my chest. I remember beign afraid asking the nurse what I should do because I thought he could hurt himself by doing this. The nurse said hey if he can hold his head up let him do it.

Moon in Leo....fiery, animated, personable, enjoys the limelight...loves sports (man, do you see that this child definitely has a future in Sports even if it's just in his school years!! He will not allow you NOT to put him in sports. I even see him in several sports!
He is very athletic he will try anything he sees which sometimes is dangerous specially after watching wrestling.

Mercury in fiery, cheery, blunt (!) Sagittarius. He has no shut off valve when it comes to talking! He has an on-going commentary on life! But remember, that same trait that drives you bonkers now, might come in handy when and if he decides to be a sports commentator!!

 No shut off valve for real. I find myself being lost in his conversations at times saying yeah, ok uh huh. Sometimes I have to stop myself because I may be getting into trouble agreeing to stuff I am not sure of because believe you me Isaiah does not forget.

Venus in possessive, intense, passionate Venus. I see him breaking hearts and not fully understanding how his actions hurt his girlfriends. When he falls, he will fall hard...but he may fall,...a lot! He will be the jealous sort. His girlfriends will need to understand what they are getting into before they fully commit to your son! You will find yourself with your arms sympathetically wrapped around these girls, walking them out to the car, explaining,..."Well hun,...you knew what he was all about....I tried to warn you...buh-bye....'NEXT!!!'" It's his nature.
But the good news is people with this placement of Venus,...when he realized she's the one...he will be loyal IF IF IF, she gives him a long ass leash!!!
I am not too sure about this one yet because he is not into the whole girl thing right now thank goodness

Jupiter in Leo (more fire in his chart!)
Saturn in fun loving, intelligent, chatty, easily bored Gemini.
Uranus in Aquarius....(he loves the computer....he will soon know more about them than you! Big in electronics as he gets older!)
Neptune in Aquarius...Pluto in Sagittarius.
This again is right on we have two computers in the house he can turn the thing on and get on the internet no problem. He intently stares at the screen knowing what he is doing.

Your son has 5 fire signs in his chart/3 mutable/2 Cardinal. His strength is his energy level! But he might find it hard to follow through what he starts. You'll be riding him to clean his room, wake up, finish homework...(know that ahead of time...homework will be a pain in the ass with this kid! He'd rather be outside than sitting at a table doing his times tables!) Keep homework as fun as humanly possible.
I can see this happening all ready as he has a very short attention span in anything it kills him to look you in the eye when your trying to explain something to him.

He has 2 water signs...5 fire...3 air and none in earth! What does that mean? It means he lacks a real sense of groundedness. There is a difficulty coping with the realities of everyday life. Practical daily chores just may not interest this kid! He may have his sights on other more exciting things and thereby causing difficulties in concentrating on the matters at hand (getting ready for school, brushing teeth, homework, etc...) And as he gets older, he might have problems keeping his mind on what's important in regards to the things that would bring him more stability and groundedness to his life. He will need to learn to embrace organization, stability and structure in his daily life. This lesson might come in time and with maturity.
I appreciate this warning a lot as PR was right on traget with everything else so I know she speaks the truth with this one. Kids do not come with instruction booklets or warning labels so this info right here serves as just that.

 

I feel inspired to write about this due to a situation all to familiar to me that a friend of mine is in. Finding yourself pregnant not knowing what your future will hold, not knowing if you will be a good parent or not.
This is not a pro-life stance at all because I trully believe in a choice for anyone as their life is not my life. I make my own decisions and therefore I have to deal with my own decisions.
When I was pregnant with Geneva my world was a mess. I did not know how I was going to parent/support another child. I felt like I was a loser having 4 kids. Wondering what people would think of me also weighed heavy on my mind.
To seek support I went to a local pro-life organization 'A Woman's Concern' they were so supportive. They counsled me for a while asking why I was thinking of terminating my pregnancy. The words that stuck with me the most was 'Do not make a decison due to your current circumstances as these can change from day to day'. Then they led me to a room where an ultrasound was performed I could see my baby's heartbeat and broke down crying. That ultrasound really brought it home for me that I was carrying a little life inside of me.
I have included a video in this blog by Nick Cannon 'Can I Live' I found this CD single somehow one day searching through a music store. I had no idea what it was about or even how this artist was as I only knew him from Nickelodeon and MTV. The message is so powerful.
Every day I doubted my decision I would soul search while listening to this song it was as if my unborn child was speaking to me through the womb via this song.


Deciding life or death is never an easy task. I would not wish that deicison on anyone. It is my personal stance not to pass jusdgement on anyone who does either.
I rememebr telling the counselor that having a 4th child was going to ruin my life. The exact opposite happened. It was the begining of my life as Geneva blessed me with having a daughter, knowing the importance of family over work and blessed the boys with having the love of a girl.
I'm not going to call my friend out using her name but could you all please say a little prayer for her and her baby tonight??? Prayers are needed. Thanks