There is this girl Monique at Cullen's school who I told him has to have a crush on him. She has all the signs saying hi to me,saying hi to Cullen,punching him and teasing him. I have told him ever since she said hi to me that she likes him he always tells me no she can't because she picks on him all the time. Smiling as I think back to when I was his age I knew. I explained to him how girls have a funny way of showing their affection. Sharing with him my own funny story of a boy named Michael I liked at his age. For no apparent reason I kicked him in the head but I liked him bad I wanted his attention.
Today Cullen get's in the car after school and says your right Mom Monique likes me. I asked him how he knew did she tell him? Cullen said he called her on it and told her that he knew she liked him. She tried to deny it at first then one of her girlfriends who heard the conversation gave monique the eye and she then admitted it 'Fine I like you'. Cullen's answer to this? I don't want her as a girlfriend she punchs hard. Joking with him I said well maybe she would stop punching you if she was your girlfriend. He looked at me like I was stupid and then said no I don't want a girlfriend who is stronger then me.
Ahhh puppy love so sweet, innocent and easy

I have decreased my numbers in half now just having the little ones at home. This will help in my endless battle against the filth monsters It's easier to clean the house when you just have the two little ones at home.
Darian got off to school fine now Cullen was another story. Being 9 years old I guess it's sort of normal. He did all the stuff a kid does in an attempt to stay home. The tears,dragging a**,moaning about aches and pains and of course the guilt trips.
I held my ground and now he is at school. As a little girl I remember doing the same thing to my Mom
Things should be back to normal as the week progresses and we all get back in the swing of things and then comes February vacation and we will go through the same tug o war.

I took Cullen (my 9 yearold) to see his great grandmother today so he could exchnage Christmas gifts with her. I love visiting her as I think it is important for him to know his father's side of the family even if his father isn't planning on participating in his life. It's just that I dread the aftermath if that makes sense. Cullen seems to like to visit but his emotions get all jumbled by the time we get home. I guess it is the pictures of his Dad on the wall and knowing that this is his dad's side of the family.
One thing that I trully admire about Kooka (what we call her) is that she holds no punches wether it's her grandson or not she calls it like it is. She hates that he doesn't do right by Cullen and will let his Dad know that she is upset with his actions but there is nothing any of us can do to make him be a dad.
Then on this visit I find out that he was down here from New York on Thanksgiving spent the day with his Mom and sisters. No one told me this. I guess he must have made it a rule to abide by if he was coming to visit. Yeah and another thing that got my goat good was him and his wife brought Christmas presents for both of his sisters kids and kooka but didn't give cullen anything. That is wrong.
My BF says I should learn to callous myself to this stuff but I can't. I don't let it bother me as much as it used to but it still bugs me gets under my skin.
Cullen's grandmother wanted me to bring him down her house this weekend. It's always one way though and that bothers me they were down this way to visit Kooka before Christmas they could have stopped by here. His grandmother is harder to be around then Kooka she comes out with some off the wall stuff. Like always putting me down for breatsfeeding not wanting me to feed my kid while I am visiting. Just stupid stuff like that. I don't think I am going down there well today now it's after midnight LOL. Giving myself a get out of the inlaw visit for free pass. Anyone else need one of those?

With all of my other children I was either working or in school so they were in daycare all day. I would get notes telling me about their days most the times those notes would be bittersweet as I would read about their firsts.
Today as I was cleaning Cullen and I look over to Geneva who had pulled herself up to a standing position from a sitting position attempting to get a toy from her box. I am still so psyched
Such a little thing but I am so grateful that I am staying at home with her right now to be able to share in this event.
I put her back in a sitting position and grabbed the camera to try and capture it. I did get a little something to share with ya guys but it wasn't the same as the first thrill.

My 4 yearold is hyperactive so the winter is not a fun time in my home. The weather has been nice to us for the past few days so we have been to the local park a few times including today.
The 4 yearold,baby and me took a walk to the park. Cullen stayed home watching Nacho Libre and Darian is at my Mom's for a few days.
It was so nice watching Isaiah playing in the sand,swinging on the swings laughing yelling being a kid. The baby was sitting discovering the leaves and sticks.
I had a moment of peace/happiness watching my kids enjoy themselves.