This is what my 9 yearold's father would have you to belive he has with me but it is so not the case.
I accept situations for what they are when there is nothing you can do to change them you have to let go and hope for the best. My role in this is Mother not to him but to my son.
He can no longer hurt me with his words or his hands those days are long over ended when I picked up and started a new far away from him.
No matter what my feelings were of him I always kept him involved with his son.
I made the mistake of always hoping for the best with him. Like never taking him to court for child support as I knew one day he would wake up and pay on his own well ah that did not happen
We all have our breaking point right? Well mine was when he refused to talk to Cullen on the phone, wouldn't answer the phone,blocked my phone number,wouldn't return calls and then the hum dinger when he hung up on Cullen. So the family and I we took a little road trip yes we did.
Went right to his house which is like and hour and a half away. My heart dropped when we entered the house boxes all lined up they were moving.
Turns out he was moving out of state. This is just like him run from your problems block them out they don't exist.
So that woke me up that he was going to run from his responsibility that I had to hurry up and file in court for child support which I did.
Now you would think he would be greateful that I have waited this long 9 years. He has given a little here a little there but nothing consistent and ever since he got married about a year ago he just all together stopped. Stopped seeing Cullen and stopped helping out. So what is a baby mama to do? Of course if you can't work it out then you go to the court. I always told him it would be better off to send me something even 20 a week something then nothing but he does not want to cooperate.
So the spin to this story is that I believe because I filed for child support he is now using this as a reason to be a dead beat Dad. No matter what he always called Cullen on his B-Day this year no call. Now X-Mas is approaching and I really think there will be no phone call.
That's it folks that's all I want is a phone call some type of comunication. A child needs to know their father but what do you do when that father runs and hides?

It is so funny to me being a Mom of boys as the years go by it gets more interesting to see life on the other side of the scope as a boy sees it.
I picked up my 9 yearold at school this afternoon as always we stopped by the corner store near his school. Who do we see? The girl I always tease him about
The first time I saw her she says in a sweet voice 'Hi Cullen' and I said to Cullen that she was so cute and seemed nice. He looked at me with disgust and told me that she is not cute or nice she just acts like that because she can be oh so mean. I told him that she probably likes him because that is how little girls show their affection at that age but Cullen refused to accept that.
Everytime I see her she will say in a sweet little voice 'Hi Cullen's Mom'
So whenever I see her I always joke with him and say 'Hi Cullen'.
She was at the store and did her usual Hi Cullen. Her big Sis was like oh is that your friend he is so cute.
Cullen gets in the car all matter of factly asking me if I knew who that was. I said of course it's the 'hi cullen' girl. He looks at me responding 'I'm such a chick magnet' HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH I am still dying from that. I was like one girl thinking your cute does not constitute chick magnet status he proceeds to tell me how all the girls think he is so cute and it annoys him.
I love being on the other side here it is too funny Gotta love my little chick magnet

Darian comes home today with $20 that his teacher gave him to replace a hat he took from him then lost.
This hat was Tevonte's the one who stole Darian's bike and beat him up within the last week. The one he was friends with last week and arch enemies this week.
So the biatch in me says silently screw him he's not getting the money however I am here to teach right from wrong to my kids. I asked Darian isn't that money to replace his hate he said yes. I said well when I go to the mall tonight we will use that money to buy him a new hat and then you can give it to him tomorrow.
Ha Ha Ha (devious laugh) I'm getting over a little on this bugger because no way the hat cost 20 so we will buy the replacement hat and then the money that is left over Darian can have for all of his troubles this past week. Oh sweet karma

I decided today that I must venture out to the mall to do some more XMas shopping for the kids. I told myself I was all done days ago but apparently I changed my mind or lost my mind both the same I guess
Having 4 kids to shop for is driving me bananas. Trying to make sure everything is even and everyone is happy with their gifts.
Then I struggle with myself regarding the baby as it is her first XMas but she has no idea what so ever as to what is going on. At first I said oh I'll just get her a few things and then those few things added up to a few more things. I was able to control my girlish impules as I picked up a cabbage patch doll. I have been dying to buy girl stuff for so long but always got stuck with the army men,trucks,aliens and wrestlers Neva is too young right now and I have the rest of her life to spoil her Knowing my luck she is going to be a tom boy loving all her brothers stuff Oh well if she does end up like that I'll love her just the same because she is her own person.
I am going to take cash out at the ATM so I can give myself a limit. This season I think every one tends to go a little overboard so I am watching myself carefully.
As with any XMas in my house I spend all this time picking out toys that I think they are going to love. They open em in the morning may play with them for a few days and then just a selective few get used daily Ahh some things never change

The bike was returned thank goodness at 11:30PM on a school night mind you
The Mother calls me to tell me she just dropped it off when her son came home then proceeds to tell me that she doesn't need any problems. She kept saying I don't know what's going on. It's obvious lady stories may not line up exactly but a 13 yearold had another kids bike until 11:30PM on a school night
Geez I know we raise our kids differently but I just can't see letting my 13 yearold run the street until 11:30 at night while I am 20 miles away or even at home for that matter.
My kids are in bed at 9 tops.
All in all I am happy the bike is back and Darian and I have both learned some lessons here. I don't think he will be lending out his stuff any time soon at least for a month while he is punished for lying I learned to be more careful of what kids come in this house to prevent thefts
Darian also learned the difference between a friend and an acquaintence