Yep that's right my teen is singing this now and for gosh knows how much longer. He can blame those damn hormones! I tend to be on the soft side a lot of the time and being kids they run all over me
I have to stop the way he has been acting though no big deal just the talking back, fresh comebacks all that. I know I did it too but my Mom put a stop to it too.
He thought he got off easy with just a few days of punishment last week then when I told him he was still on punishment those hormones turned him into Mr. Hyde I swear
I have to do the best to breathe deep,go to my happy place (a nice white sandy beach in Jamaica) and try to ignore his unhappiness. Hear no evil see no evil

Today my 3 yearold is 4 he's so excited. I can't believe it has been 4 years time flys by.
He is my BF's first child/son (my other 2 are not his but he treats them as if they are then the baby my princess is his as well). We did not plan on Isaiah as BF was 30 and told he could not have kids due to gun powder posioning when he was young. This was ok with me as I had the 2 boys all ready. Well doctor's were wrong I got pregnant.
I wanted a girl but found out it was a boy. BF was so happy. I was happy too as my Mom was there for me for the other 2 boys through pregnancy and delivery now I would have the father there.
When Isaiah came into the world (his name means God's gift how true is that?)BF cried and cried. He was amazed that Isaiah had the same little toe as he did (stretching off to the side). I loved seeing that love in BF as he had always been a hard type person emotionless at time.
Isaiah and BF are best friends they do everything together. I love him too he has his own little personality that can be a pain at times but that is just him.
Who would have thought that me the only child would have 4 kids of my own? I love being a Mom seeing them develop into their own person. Each year they grow and learn a little more.
Not only did I give BF a child but his first son. God game me one more blessing for that I am most grateful.
So got to go now and prepare for this just a little family gathering but it's the world to Isaiah. Just got caught in the memories of his miracle birth. Goodness I miss it when he was a baby snuggling up he won't let me do that very much anymore.
Yesterday he was in a mood because he was tired he climbed up in the rocking chair with me. I looked down at him on my chest asleep and smiled that was the baby I missed it had been so long

I was tired this morning as the baby has changed her schedule and thinks it would be a great idea to wake up in the middle of the night to chat or play. Oh the things we take for granted before motherhood
I was laying on the couch boyfriend on the computer kids playing about. I said hey let me see if I can get a nap there is another adult here.
I asked if it would be all right. My boyfriend tried the little guilt trip saying he was thinking about taking a walk (which he does all the time) but I resisted and decided to take a stand.
I slept for for 3 hours yeah
Sleep the best part of the day no worries,no one asking me questions, no fighting and no responsibility you see where I am going.

I have been thinking a lot recently about my daughter and the decision to continue my pregnancy. I am so happy I chose life. I remember being so depressed before her conception. I would sleep all the time (sleep through the whole weekend). I was not a good Mom at the time because I was in such a funk
My job was my life but it was draining me giving me nothing back. I felt helpless so I asked God to help me. I thought he was punishing me further when I found out I was pregnant as this was the last thing I wanted was another child. I honestly thought God was trying to push me over the edge or put me in the looney bin
Now as I look back I think God was testing my faith. Would I do the right thing even though times were tough? He was testing my faith.
I always wanted a daughter. I would pine over other's little girls. I love my boys don't get me wrong but I feel so left out when they do their manly things.
I can not picture my life without my daughter Geneva (named after my great grandmother). She completes me. Her conception triggered so many life changing events. I fought those changes fearing change but I see now these were all meant to be.
I feel completed now no longer depressed. I am a better Mother. I now stay at home and focus on all of my children.
Geneva is an angel sent from heaven from God changing my life for the better. My faith is stronger then ever before. God is good,life is good.

Well I cooked and we ate except the 3 yearold who rather play Mario. Everyone tried to force him, he just cried. I said let him do what he wants I would rather him not be at the table then cry and ruin it for everyone. The sacrafices we make
All went well until the end. The boys were wrestling and took it too far my 8 year old and 12 year old went into taking blows at each other. My Mom,BF and myself had to pull them off of each other
Have no idea what they were fighting about in fact I don't think they were fighting about anything it was just those male hormones
All I know is I am in big trouble in a few more years because I am having a hard time getting them off of each other. As my grandmother always said to her kids 'play nicely just don't kill each other
Hope everyone had a great day!