Thinking this morning of how thankful I am that I have my kids. Thankful that they are healthy. Thankful that God blessed me with 4 when some can't even have 1. Thankful that I chose life over abortion each time even when I doubted my strength and my ability to provide.
I should hope some day my children will see how much I truly love them. I might not be rich in wealth but in love I am a millionaire

Today has been dare I say peaceful? Yesterday was off the chain
My 8 yearold woke up on his own, took care of the baby until I woke up, got dressed and helped get the 3 yearold ready. This right here folks is a miracle
Now I have ot wait until my 12 yearold comes home to see if it is indeed a miracle day. He's always walking in here in a mood ranting and raving about his teachers. Oh I remember those days

I went out last night to a get together with some girlfriends I used to work with. I was so looking forward to it as I have not been out socially in about 2 years so much so that I could not sleep the night before.
I went out and bought new shoes,hairspray and brought up my pre-pregnancy clothes. I got dolled up and hit the highway
I expected to stay the night and party. My concious had another plan
Within an hour of being there I missed my kids. It began to be clear that I would not be staying over. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed myself being around old friends and adult conversation but home was calling
I headed home around 11PM. The whole ride home I hoped I would not miss the baby's night feeding
As I opened the door to my house my 3 yearold came running (yes he was still up) yelling 'mommy' and giving me a great big hug. Guess they are right that abscence makes the heart grow founder because that was the biggest hug I have got in a long time
Guess my days of hitting the town have been numbered not because that my kids are here but because I just simply love my position as their Mom

On my way home from the food pantry with the two older boys tonight I asked myself would I change my financial status? If I had a choice right now to be so well off that I could buy anything for myself and the kids would I choose to do so?
I smiled as I peered out of the corner of my eye to sneak a peek at them then answered no way.
Yes we may not be rich and able to afford luxurys but on the other hand we are not as bad as many other families out there. In fact I like that our position right now. We have what we need and a few extras
No matter what though we have each other. I think I have finally got that through to them. I am proud of my kids specially the older ones. I am proud of where we have been, where we are now and where we are yet to go together.

No disrespect to anyone who may not believe in God. I was one of those people for a while.
The birth of my daughter really changed things. I had a hard decision ahead of me when I was pregnant with Geneva. Having 3 boys all ready I could not see another mouth to feed in the picture. My brain told me no way but my heart told me differently. I pondered over abortion so many times landing at 2 prolife offices for counseling.
My heart won the battle so I continued the pregnancy. I am so glad I did. I love my little girl. I feel complete to finally have a little me
The strangest things have happened since she was born. You know that feeling I spoke about, not being able to provide for another mouth? It's like God has erased that thought from my mind as so many miracles keep taking place that I no longer worry about things
For instance I needed a crib for her and did not have the money to purchase one. Different people would tell me they would get me one with nothing materializing then one day I looked out my window and there was a crib! The woman down stairs had abandonded several household items including the crib. I said thank you God.
Then I needed a bathseat as she was getting too big for the plastic tub. I pondered how I could rob Peter to give to Paul to make this happen. I went to the food pantry looked straight ahead where items are left for people to take there was her bath seat!
Now the winner. My gas was turned off last night because of an overdue bill had to pay 100.00 last night and another 100.00 this Friday so in my mind I am freaking that ok that is our Thanksgiving down the drain no dinner for us. I had forgot that I had signed up to be eligible for a turkey basket at my son's school as I did not think there would be a chance out of all of those families that they would pick us. Well, I just got the phone call thanksgiving is on the way
We have something to be thankful for this year a nice dinner and a beautiful baby girl